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All about love,hates,places,music and what keeps me going

IIIIIIRRITATING...

HES IRRRRITATINGGG.
i like to say IRRITATING with a long EEEEE "i" infront cos i think it sounds irritating enough.

oh well.
i dont know whats he's busy with but im irritated with him.
he likes to decide things last min and then tell me he's not coming for it.
and that makes me pissed cos i dont like people to say one thing and do another.
and guess what

i think i see him less then 2 hours in ONE MONTH.

hello ONE MONTH?!

its changing lah.. and i guess it changed.
things are not the same anymore..

k. whatever.
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been to another funeral today..

humans are always disappearing from the earth i guess.

i think its the 2nd or 3rd time ive been to mandai for people's cremation.
and its always sad.
esp after the service where people will move to another room to see their loved ones being pushed into the big fire thingy which i dont know how to call it.

its painful to hear and watch.
and ive always hated that room..
even though how nice the gov had decorated the place..

but its still a painful thing to be there.
you'll feel a sudden lost in your mind,
you'll feeel for the family even though u know that its just a short separation (christians will understand this)
and you'll know you'll never understand how the family members are feeling.

its like this sudden thing like oxygen's taken away from you for a little while..
then given back to you after everything's over.


that room has that power to make me feel like that.

funerals always make me feel that humans are limited.
we wont know when we're gonna fall ill, and when we're gonna die.
we just live day by day. not knowing whats gonna come because tomorrow never comes.

life is short, and full of trials and temptations.

OSY did say something to me and it strucked me for a moment

"IF HEAVEN IS THAT GOOD, WHY IS PEOPLE AFRAID OF GOING?"

yar, if heaven is good.. why?

i still dont have that answer.
guess thats the weakness of humans and our lack of faith ba.
saded.

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TO THE PERSON WHO TAGGED ON MY BOARD..

im somehow glad that u tagged?
because u left me thinking, and uhhuh, you've gotten your purpose of letting my THINK.
and that also reassured me that my faith is not little.

i truely believe that Jesus exist, and also in our hearts and i've been working very hard to live for him and not for myself..

because when i live for myself, i find it very empty.
dont you think so?


because we're just mere humans.
we're born into this world, get raised up like a normal human as great as possible, and we study, we work, we gain knowledge, then we doubt whether there's a higher being called GOD.
then we get married, have kids, then grow old and die.

then whats the point?
and whats the difference between a thief and you?
and whats the difference between a lawyer and you?
and whats the difference between a murderer and you?
NO.
nothing different.

because IF we're just humans, then we wouldnt get JUDGED.

why is a thief scared of getting caught? because they're scared of being judged.
why is a murderer scared of getting caught? because they'll be judged.


and whats the difference between a lawyer and you?
nothing! they're still humans, except with more knowledge.

but why work so hard if they're just humans? we'll all live and die.

and after death, there'll be judgement. (because its all written in the bible, something which some people say is written by humans)

and death is something we as humans has to pay because we're all sinners, and we all have sinned.

and if you tell me you're not afraid of being judged, then i must say you're a brave man.

then. im a timid person im afraid to say.. because God is someone we cant afford to "de zui" (sorry cant find the exact words)

judgements left us 2 path, one to heaven and one to hell.
simple right?
and why do we believe in Christ?

because we, ok I, believe that heaven last for eternity and nothing can replace that.
and how?

just merely using our little faith and believing that Jesus Christ died on the cross for all our sins, and we're washed clean in His Blood, and we can have eternity.

its that simple. now its up to you whether you believe or not.
and God gave us the freedom to CHOOSE which path we wanna go.

if you tell me you're not afraid of death, then i have nothing to say.

but anyways i've said whatever i could to the best of my knowledge.
im not a good speaker/typer and definitely not someone who can express my thoughts freely as i want to.
there's definitely a huge spiritual war as im typing this. i could already feel the different irritating thoughts thats gotten into my head.

God is indeed Good.
what is eternity? nobody can say.
because to me, the difference lies in the quality of life.
its how you look at it and live on.


and im sometimes glad that im 'sick' all the time?
because then i can understand and experience God better.

i thank God that he chosen me to be his child from the very beginning because im somebody who wouldnt think about such stuff if im a non-christian.

LASTLY.
we believe in Jesus not because WE HAVE LOW IQ.
thank you.

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