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Monday, January 19, 2009

wish..
and your thoughts will come true.

and i was thinking of anna on sunday..
and i saw her on sunday!
cool right..
hey it wasnt intentional ok!!
God made us meet.
lol.

anyways i had a bad dream on sat...
which kinda scare me alot now.

maybe i've watched too much news on the wars between kaza and israel..
or heard too much stories from deacon kuanyou..
or read too much news on the bangkok gun shooting incident..

i dream i was in afghastanistan, with my friends..
ive no idea why i was there..
then while we're buying bread for lunch.. gun fire started out of no where..

we were terrified, and i ran.
then i got lost with my friends and was alone.
then i found myself hiding at some place with the people living there.

then i was found with the rest of them and was held hostage by the terrorist.
damn it was scary man.
to think of guns pointing at you and threatening your life, willing to die at any moment.

at that point of time you might be thinking what i'm thinking right?
nope im not thinking about my family. i also dono why.
i thought of God's salvation and His judgement.
then i got scared.
not of death but of judgement.
it seems like i've not lived the best out of my life till now.
everything i did was for myself.. and all i could remember at that moment was all the lies i told, all the bad attitudes i gave my parents and all that crap i did in this 19 years of life.
THEN SUDDENLY i had to be judged.
im not prepared.

so anyways i dint get shot down, but did hear real gun shots although i know they're fake ones.
i manage to run awaay and got united with my friends..
and then..
NOPE we dint catch a plane nor stay at some guarded ambassy..

I WOKE UP, and was very terrified.
and of course tired.
FIGHT WAR LEH U THINK WHAT!
lol.

but somehow i think God wants me to re-think my purpose on earth and really reflect on my life..
re-assure myself that im saved before saying things like "i wanna die"
yes i say that all the time last year but not yet in 09.

and God wants me to think what i can do for him.

"For God so loved the world He gave his ONLY SON."
who's Jesus Christ, who washed away my sins, who saves me when i just believe in Him, who gave me strength to carry on, who loved me, who gave me faith and trust and all the good things on earth.

all my friends who're reading this..
guess u have to start thinking about your purpose in life =)

ohman. its 330am in the morning.
NIGHTS!