All about me,love,hates,music and the sky.

All about love,hates,places,music and what keeps me going

man..

it's 230am noww.

and i've just finish doing camp shirt.

omg i'm so dead
i just realise i got damn alot of stuff to settle.

and now the most important thing is SLEEP.

because tml morning i have to squeeze with an MRT of sardine office people..

but im so glad that speakers and tshirts are settled!!

people.. do pray for weaather!

and THANKS ALOT FOR YOUR HELP.. ANNA AND HUITING!! =))

i love tong fenn

i love windy dayss.

i love watching drama late into the night

i love rainy days..

which is nowww.



i willl soar with you over the stormm

some of the presents i've gotten for bdae this year...






A VIVID RAINBOW ON AN ORANGE SKY FROM MY DEAR GGOD =))



ALL OF MY PRESENTS.. =)
thanks to my dearest colleagues... I LOVE THE NOTEBOOK SOO MUCH!!



a DEAR CARD AND MP3 from my dearest URLELE!! =))



SEE HOW LONG SHE WROTE!







A VERY CUTE AND WARM CARD FROM SIS HUIZHEN =))





A VERY NICE BOX, WITH A VERY PRETTY NECKLACE, WITH A VERY YUMMY CHOCOLATE BAR?, AND A VERY TOUCHING CARD!=))
THANKS ANNA AND JOSHUA!




I LOVE ALL MY PRESENTS!!

u knowing crying in the toilet is the best place?

because teears make us stronger..

laughing their heads off at random stuff the others guys just did,.










group photo =))

I LOVE ORANGE SKIES WITH RAINBOW!!

i think God blessed me with rainbow today to remind me of his PROMISE, and that He'll never forsake me even though i went off track sometimes..

and its the first time in my life i thought that the sky was so pretty??
but i dint have a camera with me so i was quite sad..
but huiting did help me take a photo with the sky and rainbow..
although cant really see the rainboww..

but i'd really love to see an orange sky once again!!
=))

anyways..

really wanna thank my friends, for the celebration, the fun and laughter and many LOVES!

this year had been especially meaningful because i get to spend to spend it both with my lasalle classmates and my favourite church people!!

was out with my classmates yesterday night..
and we really had alot alot of fun lohh.
its really been the first time we do all these..
since all the people in my class are guys, except for 3 girls
so its really rare to have us hanging out..

it wasnt really meant to be a celebration for me, actually just a small kinda gathering since we all finished school already..
but then somehow they all came to know it was my bdae today..
so had a mini celebration for me..

but it was really a good time together!
sitting down and talking about anythingg.
and poor isaac came down all the way but couldnt enjoy cos he drives..
=X

sorry isaac, but thanks for coming down!!


had loaads of fun lohhh..
and i really will miss my friends at lasalle even though the time we spent together studying is soo damn short.
really will miss those moments where we get complain by people, where we build a chair sculpture, where we all sit down and complain and gossip about people..where we all had to chiong homework..

its damn short, but its soo memorable.
ahh i will miss lasalle friends loh, seriously.



anyways back to my bdae celebration..
saturday is a weird day to be celebrating your bdae!

cos i was really really tired out from last night..
and i had to go church and all those..
lol

so i was kinda cranky and tired.
because so many things happened on the way.. had to wait for people and all those until i started complaining to my poor brother and screaming on the phone.. lol.
but nevertheless reallly enjoyed the celebration my dearest church people came up with.
i was so touched with the attendance man..
really.. and very happy!

everything was just so nicely spaced out, and the decoration is so pretty!!
food and company was everything i could ask for..

and they had to suprise me by hiding behind a pillar? or something..
but i was really suprised!!
THANKS ALOT PEOPLE!!
=))

but my chen qiqi never come loh!!
she deserve a smacking from me!!

but its ok la.. cos she wanna study..
but really feel weird without her around!!

and thanks to my brother and gang..
i got a huge "present" from them..
which left me smelling like whipped cream the whole night.
LOL.



and especially thank the following people:

SOAP, for making the unexpected celebration a success because he called the people there..

Isaac, for coming down even though he's like damn tired.

STAN, for the free drink..
all the guys who came.. like ang,sam,rossi,shaun,aaron,ragar,stan.. for your presence =)


Paul, for being the mastermind making the suprise celebration a really meaningful and fun one..
and all the coordination work with qiqi, really THANKS ALOT =))

Shenghao, for sending the cake right to my door step before my bdae but then to realise i wasnt home..
but i was very touched! seriously.. and its 'awfully chocolate" cake lehhhh. OMG LA.


QIQI, for being the mastermind and not appearing.. LOL but i totally felt the love, so u owe me a huge present for not appearing!!

and everybody who turned up, like weiqiang and all those suprising people who turned up.
i was really touched.. really!

and to ANNA and haolong, thanks for the present and card!
and to HUizhenie.. thanks for the card tooo!!


and to anybody whom i've left out..

A BIG THANK YOU TO U GUYS FOR EVERYTHING..
ALL THE WISHES, AND LOVE..

it was really memorable for me.. and i really felt touched!

THANK YOUU PEOPLE!

I LOVE U ALL! =))

thank you mummy and daddy..

and this 19th year will be a good one, i hope!! =))

i think i injured my back =XX

cos its hurting now.
=XX

later i paralysed how!!
cannot move..
AHHH

nerve system got problem how!


but also good la..
then i get alot of presents while people visit me..
and also get a GOOD REST..

have you ever had the experience of not feeling yourself?

as in..
you cant really feel yourself walking, cant really feel yourself thinking,cant really feel yourself when you're tired?

i think im SOOO tired until i experienced ALL OF THE ABOVE.

i think i've mastered the art of STAND-SLEEPING(or sleep-standing), sleep sitting, sleeping on the bus, sleeping on the train, sleeping on cabs, sleeping while using my hands to hold my head.

ALL the ART OF SLEEPING i've tried.

LOL.

and the weird thing is i always manage to wake up in time, and i dont miss my stops.
cool right..
.
.
.
.
.
-___________-"
totally not.



i hasnt had good sleep ever since 2 weeks before school closes.
and i think i'm suffereing from insomnia?
im like tired, but i cant sleep.

and i always sleep at 2am wake up at 7am.
and does that continuously for 2weeks already.
i think im superwoman =x



i always had no time to sleep one, and i dono why.
and i always got stuff to do the next day.. which is irritating lah.



ok i shall stop my complains.



CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL STUDENTS FOR COMPLETING THEIR HUGEASS EXAMS!

exp qiqi and miss fu.
JIAYOU OK!




I GOT SO MUCH THINGS TO DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

i wanna cry already.


and why do i have to go school ONE stupid day before my day?!!

WHY....
!!!!

i hate school =XX

原点

心像飘落的枯叶踩在地上都会碎

我说我爱着你但你却又假装你没听见

我像个隐形人逗你开心逗你笑

但你总是看不见

难道要很多考验还要很多抱歉

才能够证明我会爱你到永远

寻寻觅觅我们还是又回到了原点

心像飘落的枯叶要怎么熬过这冬天

好想抱你直到明天怎么这双手又退却

我像个胆小鬼只敢想像只敢暗恋

就是不敢放手追

难道要很多考验还要很多抱歉

才能够证明我会爱你到永远

寻寻觅觅我们还是又回到了原点

我已经无法承受没有结果的结果

在爱的洪流我只能继续去漂流

有太多太多考验还有太多抱歉

放不下我在想着你你想着谁

寻寻觅觅我们终于又回到了原点

难道要很多考验还要很多抱歉

才能够证明我会爱你到永远

寻寻觅觅我们还是又回到了原点

我没有方向也没有了知觉

我忘了方向也忘了所有感觉

我 oh ho…

PHOTOS are back!

thanks to Jane..
i got my photos for the early-bdae celeb with my colleagues..
im abit lazy..so i'll just upload those with me in it!

and thanks laopa,uncle philip, ade,jane for attending and giving me the pleasant pleasant surprise!!
=))


the self-made cake!!
from the buffet la of course!
if not why look so special!
hahaha












ME~~








U KNOW WHY I GOT SO MANY PHOTOS OF BLOWING CANDLES?
noooo.
its not my friend put shutter speed..
its that the candles are un-blowable!!

i blow like 4 times lah! and it doesnt get blown off.

so my colleagues had to put it off by throwing the candles in a cup!!

they so old liao still so naughtty!
BUY UN-BLOWABLE CANDLES!

me~




PRESENT TIME!

TADA!



NOTE BOOKS WITH MY NAME ON IT..
OMGGG
so nice so pretty so..ELIM!
i love it lah.

cos i think most people dont know..
i collect notebooks?

and i tot they knew!
but they dont..
so can say we have telepathy!
hahaha.

THANKS =))








THE GIRLS~



ALL OF US!







LAOPA..

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UNCLE PHILIP..

S.H.E - 安静了

作曲：周杰伦 作词：作词:Selina



只剩下钢琴陪我站在这裡

梦想中 属于我们的婚礼

却成了 单人结婚进行曲

在这场爱情角力的拔河裡

爱我还是爱你

你选择了自己

Woo~

撒娇的 可爱的 女人的 爱哭的

照片裡 曾经的 都是你喜欢的

如今我还在原地

你却走回你的记忆



你说我爱你太多

就快要把你淹没

你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落

分开是一种解脱

让你好好的想过

我想要的那片天空

你是不是能够给我



你说我给你太多

却不能给我什么

分不清激情

承诺永恆或迷惑

爱情是一道伤口

我们各自苦痛

沉默是我最后温柔

是因为我太爱你



撒娇的 可爱的 女人的 爱哭的

照片裡 曾经的 都是你喜欢的

如今我还在原地

你却走回你的记忆



你说我爱你太多

就快要把你淹没

你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落

分开是一种解脱

让你好好的想过

我想要的那片天空

你是不是能够给我



你说我给你太多

却不能给我什么

分不清激情

承诺永恆或迷惑

爱情是一道伤口

我们各自苦痛

沉默是我最后温柔

是因为我太爱你



the only song i put on repeat mode for today.

and i think i've listened to it like 20times non stop.
i think it really somehow reflects my mood for the day.

not happy, not sad.

aiya i dono lah.

anyways..
im gonna say this..


if you guys (i meant my classmates)..
dont see me next sem..
just remember that i still exist.

why?
cos i just recieved an email regarding resit.
and yes i failed my first paper michele i feel like dying right now.

cos i've not done well on my music tech side..
my proj confirm fail. and my homework hasnt been at the best also.

im afraid i'll fail..
but hopefully God has his plans for me =Xx
i think im useless somehow.

AHHH.
I HATE SCHOOL.

okay bye.

and now i need to survive on 3 cups of Lipton tea to work.
ridiculous loh..

just when i was feeling very down on a thursday..

my colleagues gave me a very pleasant suprise.

an early bdae celebration.

it really never occur to me that they'll actually remember my bdae man.
and i love the present soo much.

even though we dont meet up often, but i think they're really important to me.

and the meet up really cheered me up so much since this week has been a hectic and stressful one..
one which i haven been experiencing for the past years..

its coming back.
and i feel like giving up already..

why do i feel so insignificant?

okay its 215am now..
im so dead for tomorrow..

i just realised..
i slept at almost 2am everyday for the past 4 days..
and i only slept 5hours then i wake up for work.

and i realise i dint eat proper lunch for the past few days..
lol.

i think i have a wonder body loh.
dont eat dont sleep still can function.
crazy.


but just now on the bus i had a deep sleep.
those kind wheree you just sit on the bus and wont know whats going on outside, and then you cant wake up, those kind.

scaryyyy.

but i love the rain..
reservoir looks v pretty when it rains.

its like reservoir is a huge pond that collects rain water..
v nice loh.
plus the dim pedestrian lights.
woo.



and.
jazz music works for me when i study.
cool man.
i never thought of jazz de.
but this time i just randomly open and i got it..

dadadadada..

yesterday was a wonderful day because of the date..
111108.

i think alot of people will get married on the same day in year 2011
because the date will be 111111!
COOOOOOOOOL MANNNN.

alrights.
back to my notes.

Drive me thru the monsoon, to where it's safe.
Drive me thru the rain, from all the pain.

Drive me anywhere, with you in my life..
cos keep driving on, until the end of time.


YAY.
i've just created another song.
no lah. rubbish. but i think its rather meaningful to me since i love the rain soo much.

yay. i saw him today.

and H dint sms me today.
woah. i think really relax alot loh.
everytime he sms me i'll go crazy. cause in the first place i dont wanna reply, and secondly i dont know what to reply.
his sms-es are all so dramatic.

anyways church's driving me crazy
maybe these few days im having exams and then work is so much..
and then alot of things occuring.

im losing my drive lah.
its irritating to get people come up to tell me she dont want this dont want that.

hais,
sometimes i think i shouldnt have just went into so much serving?
its like.. i really dont feel God already..
although im still praying and stuff.
but he's not there anymore.
im scared one day i'll just crumble and die...



anyways its 215am now..
i just finished reading my notes.
and im so dead for tomorrow cos im so unprepared.
although im not panicking now..
i think i'm gonna be when im in front of my papers.

im so screwed.

if i just fail for this semester its gonna be very sad..
somemore my video confirm fail already.
ah its a sad month.


im thinking....
but everytime i think it wont happen.

and i hope everything goes back to foundation times where everyone is happy.
but sadly time has changed everything
ok im gonna sleep before i continue to write crap..


goodnights!

its 4.30am on a sunday morning..
somehow i cant sleep
and maybe i hate getting woken up after like.. 3 hrs? to go to church..
so i rather not sleep.

"There's none like you" is on my mind..





days are getting harder to go by man..

oh. emo-ness is coming back.

somehow elim thinks love is a big lie.
and happiness, only happens when you're dreaming.

when you wake up..everything just breaks.
and comes back to reality.


AH i hate emo-ness when its at night.

ITS 2AM IN THE MORNING OF NOV 9TH.
and im not ASLEEP when i should beeeee..


HOW AH.
HOWAH HOWAH.

i got so much stuff to dooooo.
im going crazyyyy.
=XXXXXXXXXXXXx

OMGGGG IM TOTALLY LAUGHING AT THIS..


"who needs a bf?





when u have a world of COUSINS AND BESTIES.

lol.

but audrey reminded me.

who will piggyback you when you're tired.
who will carry your files for you?

well. i really forgotten those things i told her.
the ADVANTAGES of having a bf.

hehe. lousy hor.
im a lousy gf i think. i mean i admit i am.

feel like my blog doesnt have 内涵。
it just looks and appears to be. just somewhere i rant about.
who cares about having 内涵 or not ?!
u do?
if u do, u won't be reading.

well. recently. even though i didn't get to talk to yile as much as i wanted to. but hey.
when im sad, mad, insane.
there's always a bunch of people i can seek out to.
so nice :) and plus i'd been really teary last week. bed totally become water bed.

hongsheng said that i'd cry my heart out if i were to break up one day. and the tears will become blood. O.o
thats horrid.
but i might have the ability to.
hahaha. if PMS + STRESS + born insane, i could easily do that.
my tears are like faulty taps sometimes.
it just wouldn't stop and i have no idea where to close the stupid valve.

:) i miss everyone you know. i cant mention names because some people might get jealous and i don't know who will and later someone complaints and then i'm going to have a hard time and i may even have to edit this post just to add the name and it won't be sincere to that person and that person finds it unfair and i don't know how to appease the person and anyway and that's. wow.

lol. im nonsense don't you think so.

WHAT?
what you want?
WHATISITTHATYOUWANT?!

hahaha attitude problem.

tell me what u want
and i'll probably talk about the thing u want.
here.

ms. clara has requested for a recent photo after i tell her i've grown fat.
O.o

幸灾乐祸or what. 明明知道我肥了，还要我方照片，来出丑啊？！

lol. kidding lar. but im ugly now. it's past midnight and i don't wanna appear with pimple scars and dark eye circles and oily face to scare you.
sorry.
wait till i think im pretty then i show u. lol. (you may have to wait until.......)


gee. im back to physical chem liao. emily helpppppppppppp. HELP. got past year paper no answers, 做了有什么用？

my pot of plant died on me anyway.
it just died. lol. i don't know why.
i watered it
i sunned it
i even talked to it. (they say if you talk to your plant, your plant will be healthy and tall)<---------- A LIE"



spooky is funny..
and i think she's gone more NUTS over there at the southern pole of the earth.

I MISS SPOOKYYY.

i was just reminded that i hasnt been reading notes for the past...erm, 2years?

okok dont punch me.
maybe 1 year plus
aiya..
my exams dont really require me to read alot what..
but next week's exam is like.. making me nervous and i feeel stupid!
cos i cant get any of the information into my head!!

anyways.
today we had a interesting and funny lecture by one of the lecturer plus sound designer(?) in class..
he's pretty funny la.. with all his stupid jokes.


then he was talkking to us about employability when we graduate..
at first i rate myself, from a scale of 1-10, a 3.
but now when i think about it..
i should rate myself 1!!
or even 0!
zzz.

then he said something like..

"its not end of the world if you dont know what you wanna do in the future, cos eventually you'll grab every opportunity that comes by..
but its the end of the world, if you dont know what you wanna do, period"

i think this is so true man.
it really boils down to the attitude la,eventually.

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hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
i had a long and tough day today..
dont wanna mention.

but i miss spooky more after i read the card she send to me by snail mail that i cried when i read it on the bus.
i think she has a curse on me loh.. everytime i read stuffs from her i'll cry one.
=X

but hope she's coming back soon!
spooky if you see this..

COME BACK SOOOON CAUSE WE ALL MISS YOU!!!!
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go search Youtube for this song..

Brooke Fraser- "C S Lewis Song"








anyways i think i'll meet urlele in heaven cos both of us are soooo screwed this semester!!

she'll be one of the 5 people i wanna meet in Heaven!

was home on a friend's car and we were chatting.

and out of some random conversation he said this..

:"the ultimate reason we get together with someone is to get married what, if not, why be together?"

i was so suprised.
i dint know he'll say this.
maybe christian boys are really different in their thinking? i dont know.

maybe i have a very extreme idea towards guys thats why i was stunned when he said those words.

but true enough
you cant rush into some things..
because what you think is happiness will ultimately hurt you most.


and i think now isnt a good time..

萧敬腾'S 原谅我 is playing....

hello people..
im back for a very very short update..
been busy with work,church,rehearsals and school..

somehow glad that school term's coming to an end..
but somehow dont want it to end so soon..
oh well..
glad that we're gonna have break from all those school assginments soon.
but very sad to know that after this sem comes the last holiday that i could enjoy..
then its last semester for all of us.
then we'll part, and the guys will go NS, and the girls will continue to linger around.
ok im kidding.
but i dont feel like graduating..
because im not ready for work =XXXX



anyways..
i love november!
cos november sounds nice!
and then after novemberr comes DECEMBER!
cos got CHRISTMAS!
yay..where we get to receive alot of presents from one another, party all night, and sing loads of lovely christmass songs and learn new christmas songs for choir practice..
im excited!

i love christmas cos it marks the born of our might Jesus Christ!

alright enough.
lol.


anyways..
A's starts today..
hope my children aint feelin so much stress!
after all the 1 year plus of hard work..
after this few weeks..
and its HOLIDAYS for all of you!!

Do your best and God will do the rest ya!?


JIAYOU! =)))


i need to sleep soon cos i have work tml.

arhg. this work is driving me crazy sometimes.
partly because i feel rather stressed at work cos of the workload, and my colleagues are all guys,except my boss.

and its like..
im super paiseh cos i keep taking leave!!
i know i shouldnt but i cant help it!
school work's piling up and one side of my life needs to give in..
and obviously at this point of time SCHOOL is damn important.
i cant afford to fail my year, and my school term cause of some stupid money i try to make.

anyways.
only one more school week to go..
i think i will cheng xia qu!




church stuff keeps coming in..
im exhausted but happy that im serving happily.
alot of things to settle but im glad God's giving me the strength to move on..


but somehow i feel that things are missing from me.
how?

need your prayers ya!

=))

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