how. i opened the door and you shut it... i think it only proves that im right further..
niagaueveilebrevenlliwi
seriously i think im right.. and it needs alot more effort to prove that im wrong.
ahh whatever. how i wish i dont have to think about all these stupid stuff thats on going. =X
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
i was listening to FM9.3.3 on my way home today.. and i thought it was quite funnyy..
guy: YOU'RE SUCH A BIMBO, ALLY. GIRL: NO I'M NOT A BIMBO! I'M PRETTY!
okay.. get the joke? a bimbo is a pretty girl without brain. and she obviously doesnt know what 'BIMBO' meant..
anyways.. for the people in my class or whoever..
MAX MSP 5 IS DAMN PRETTY!! and CUTE! the stuff in the item column is so cute and so much organised! im suprised. ok at least it gave me a better reason to do my work at hoome, using MAX MSP!
u know la.. how my class people hates max. =XX
korkor came back today but i dint see him =xX nvm! i'll see him on sat! wahahhaa.
okay back to work!
Monday, October 20, 2008
WHAT ON EARTH AM I HERE FOR.. WHAT ON EARTH AM I HERE FOR.. WHAT ON EARTH AM I HERE FOR!?
guess i can never get the answer.. not now i guess.
So.. WHAT ON EARTH AM I HERE FOR?! !!!
i think i'm going to irritated myself sooner or later..
suddenly i remember the book "Purpose Driven Life.." and i remembered i dint even read finish the 1st chapter cos i tot it was too chim and i hate reading english books. thats why english so lan what.
i miss shanwei. i miss lew yile. i miss xinting. i miss everybody.
sudddenly.. i miss...
when are they coming back to me... when when when..
listen to a emo song when you're emo.. and emo-ness will conquer you. =)
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
why is being in a relationship so difficult. i guess i can never understand.
okay i hate hotmail!!! i just typed a super long email and now its gone!! i hate hotmail!!! WTHWTHWTH!!!
ahhhhhhh
anyways. whats with the whole thing about tattoo? i dont get it!! now my project mates wanna interview tattoo artist!?
HUH. ok.....
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
first things first.
i wanna say.. i still love this song alot! =)
got live cello player loh. so cool can..
. . . . .. . .
i said before the world is made up of stupid people.
indeed.
dont wanna mention anything. just wanna say. when you're ready to move on, somewhat somethings will just keep appearing, and causing something to pull you back. and the best and only choice is to escape. dont you think so? because you're left with no choice.
ah. enough of emo talk. quote something from my friend. take it it didnt even happen. so dont even talk about it.
and i was stupid enough at that time.
ahhhhhhh. why suddenly so many things happening...? haha okay maybe because i was kpo enough to find out also lah. sometimes.. yar lloh.
dont know lah.
dont you think love can change a person so much?! be it negative or positive. power of love, ya?
oh well. thats why i choose to be a nun =D lol...
because the world is made up of stupid people.
and its empty..
Monday, October 13, 2008
IM SCREWED!!!!
damn. =XXXXXXXX
how how how how how!!
Friday, October 10, 2008
life is not a box of chocolate. because life is tough. and my world is made up of stupid people.
some stupid people that i love, some stupid people that i can just forget. because life is like a big joke with Gods love.
was at Ikea just now with mr Teng cos i need to get stuff for my trip. and then.. we talked about "LIFE". which is a huge topic which can never be discussed finish. and so happens my videoarts collaboration is about the topic "LIFE" too. everything is just so coincidental.
and life. is very weird.
but i believe today is in His plans. nobody can ever sit down and randomly talk about stuff that easily, or so i believed. because im someone who can be difficult to co-habit with. trust me, really. im hard to talk to. because i'll(or am forced) to put up a defense wall all over me, until i'm very comfortable with that person then i'll talk alot. although i dont look like that on the outside. but i'm one such person.
we need love, and many a times, we dont realise people's, god's love until we've lost it. well.. not God's love, but human love.
when the person's gone, or when the person has ignored you for a long time.. then you'll realise. what you miss, is actually the LOVE.
so start to LOVE the person around you. because LIFE is too short for us to hate.
I LOVE MY GIRLS!
Thursday, October 09, 2008
hello im back.
today im very cranky. probably im not getting enough sleep. probably i have too many things on my mind. propably i hasve no music to listen to on the bus~!!
ya my mp3 died on me like a month ago. so i've been surviving on environment noise and some of my chinese romance novels while going homme.
and cos i got no mp3 to listen now.. went i reach home keep listening to songs.
and i was listenig to Jay's new album.
really lah. no wonder he's one of my idols. and he's really worth the NAME.
his songs are still as attractive(maybe this is not the right word but then i got no other words on my mind =XX) and his ballads are still as nice.
his raps are somehow the same lah...
and some of his songs still talks about family and life. really pei fu him.
album: 3 and half stars out of 5!
i think he still maintain his standard!! =))
anyways. i was cranky this morning cos i wasnt able to send brother off to TEKONG! my parents dont want me to skip school and im totally regretting for not going lah!!
piangs. once in a lifetime lehh. shit la.
zzz. i still v Z. why i never gooooooo?
aiya. but anw. brother just called home so still not so bad cos i got talk to him at least. and i think if i go i'll cry loh.
=Xx
so. yea.
right now go listen to Jay's song ya!
说好的幸福呢 - 周杰伦
你的绘画凌乱着 在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯 我还爱你了
但你断断续续唱着歌 假作没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一意一心数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着 要怎么停呢
你的绘画凌乱着 在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯 我还爱你了
但你断断续续唱着歌 假作没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一意一心数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着 要怎么停呢
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得
你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
damn nice!
bye i got work tml!
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
hello im back.
just feel like blogging cos i think my blog's abit dead. and not really lah. since i just wanna crap about stuffs.
yar. stuffs.
just a quick update about my life.
somehow.. i dont know why. i somehow feel i lost the meaning of life once again. yes. again.
remember how i was so lost in the past month then i picked myself up because God showed me the light.
then now i'm like.. lost in myself again. like i dont know what i want, i know im busy but feels very empty that kinda thing.
how to say leh. i dono la. you just interpret it yourself.
its just a very empty and bad feeling that i dont think anybody should feel. especially when im a christian. especially when im serving. especially when im one of the leaders in church. especially when im.. living with God in my life.
im not suppose to feel that way right. maybe i've just been living for myself, thats why.
i think i've been numbing myself with many many different things now. really.
somehow i feel people are all leaving me. like. shanwei's in australia. although i dont really talk to her already cos the timing quite different for us and she talks to brother more. well i miss her. and brother's going Ns like tomorrow. everything's like going so fast i dont have time to catch them back. and now i will have one less person at home to talk to me.
and dont ask me why i go to work, go to church, go to GA rehersals. i seriously dont know okay? say for money or whatever. i really dont know.
anyways wanna thank this wonderful girl in my life who's always there for me whether rain or shine, happy or sad. THANK YOU URLELE! u'll never know how much i appreciate your presence at the most crucial moment. thank you alot and i really dont know how to thank you more. =))
i think i'm so emo nowadays because i've been reading this series of book written by this author who named herself "orange" ok i know tis is kinda bizarre but her stories are quite close to me, and they're funny to begin with. i love funny story and touching story lines.
anyone who wanna borrow can tell me.. but warn u all first.. its a chinese novel in traditional chinese character! lol.
i think im gonna buy her book again!! -----------------------------------------------------------------------------
anyways. here some of the few, and v few photos of me and my childrens and the wedding i've been to and dadadad. will upload more when i'm not that busy!!
believe me.. i subconsciously clicked on 'BLOGGER'. i really dint do it on purpose.
maybe my mind is trying to tell me that i should say all these out. haha. maybe hor.
anyways. i was practicing my piano just now and i feel so insecure about taking exam next year.. one thing is im not prepared(im always not la, for ALL exams) second thing is that the exam fees is FREAKING EXPENSIVE!! omg. suck blood one loh. now the electricity bills go up and my expenses go up also. and i really cant bear to see my mum spend so much money on me esp i know that she's really left with v little for herself. and i cant fork out the money myself..
and even if i really paid for exams.. FAIL HOW?!!
its not like its couple of bucks.. its HUNDREDS ok!! zzzz. how! but if i keep learning piano and not taking exam i also waste money what.. ahh.
and.. I CANT THINK OF ANY IDEAS FOR MY PROJECT! and monday we have to have a rough presentation on our work. totally stress leh. ARTS really v hard to survive. esp when i saw somee of my classmates work.. i really think their ideas are good. and its really v hard to think out of the box loh. zzz. and my groupmates arent making any move on the project either.. im going crazyy!!
and my own recording project isnt moving either. cause ive been busy with stuff and bringing my ahma to her appointments(since all her childrens are busy with work) so left me, this slacker and ultra alot of time girl to fetch her to her appointments and back. and u know hospitals la... once u reach there.. its WAITING, WAITING AND MORE WAITING LA. then before you realise it.. half of the day is GONE! puff.
i hope i really start to do something..
and im worried about SUNGEI RINGGIT TRIP!! we hadnt had anything on our hands.!!! im worried for qiqi's planning. and the bus there, and the people going and our skit. everything also haven prepare how to go sia!! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- enough of my grumblings and rumblings!!
i went to watch EAGLE EYE with brother and friend at E HUB just now!!
oohhh the movie was DAMNN GOOOD. first time in so many years did i enjoy action movie that much man. its really keeping you glued to the screen and not thinking of anything else except wwhat the 'villian' will do next. really la.. its damn nice. you guys whoever is reading this should watch
ACTION PACKED MOVIE! =DD
rating: 4 out of 5 stars!
oh and i wanna thank my 2 jiemeis for the shopping trip!! xie ler jack and tings! =DD
i really wasted alot of your time but i finally found what i want. omg. so thanks to both of u esp TINGS! cos she gave me soo much ideas and tips. and of course jack who helped me with the final decisions!