All about me,love,hates,music and the sky.

All about love,hates,places,music and what keeps me going

im happy sad tired confused lost.
whatever..


DEPARTURE OF MR Y.

im sad because i just went to T3 and sended MR Y off..
which happens to be qi's brahtha.

yeps..
which happen to be rather funny sad and interesting.

ofcourse..
i dont like the feeling of sending someone off for over 1 year..
but i dint wanna miss out the chance of seeing him.. and then regret after that.
so yar i went to send him off..
its like..
2 months after miss fu fly, he fly then a month later.. qi's another cousin a.k.a ALL of their cousins, will fly again.
so sad right!

anyways.. back to MR Y.
actually im not that close to MR Y.
but then i actually cried.
its very weird because i think im a very emotional person.
i cannot see other people cry..because i will cry myself..
and then its very hard to stop.

its like how i will watch all the touching drama shows in the middle of the night and cry to myself.


shhh. this is my little secret =D
haha anyways.

yar.. hours before MR Y's flight..
we're all at the airport.
by then.. qi and mum are already all red-eyed.
poorthing.
think they've cried for awhile already..

im not that close to him..
but i just went.. because we've known each other since young.
played together, went to sunday school together.
although i dont really talk to him, but will still smile at him when i see him in church.

the few things that I DONT THINK you're suppose to say during one's departure...

1)Talk about CHILDHOOD
2) Talk about the Quarrels you guys had before
3) tell him that you'll miss him/her


haha because its really sad to hear those stuff.
really.
when qi's dad was saying how Mr Y use to bully qi when she was young..
both me and qi coulndt stop our tears.
its like.. really la.
all the memories will start coming up until you cannot stop it.



anyways..
the departure is sad.
except i guess all the crying humans are all GIRLS/WOMEN.
and no guys cried.
even his bestest bestest friend.. and himself.
even though i know its hard to part with families and friends..
really..
maybe its EGO. maybe they're just emotionless creature. haha ok im kidding.


IM HAPPY because i got a huge hug from him!!
YAY.
i dont know why im happy.. but i just am =)

its like.. we dont talk, we know each other exist.
thats it.
and he gave me a hug before he go..
=X
ok im contented already.


and its very touching to see him hug his family.
really la.

ok maybe people who know his family well enough will know why its touching.
but its really touching!!

and its INTERESTING because my secondary school friend, who migrated to new zealand,then came back to singapore for NS..
IS MR Y'S ARMY FRIEND.
omg.
i was like damn surprised lah.
and really. THIS WORLD IS DAMN SMALL.

if not. then we're really fated la.
hahah that time i saw him at some wedding also.
like. very coincidental loh..

but anyways thats besides the point.
MR Y's departure for studies is really a sudden one.
i think i only knew it like..
weeks ago?
when they announced it on stage.
v shocked, v suprised.
actually qi did mentioned to me, but dint know it was confirmed.
so.. yar very sudden one. somemore he just ORD-ed like last friday?
lol
yea.

but i know MR Y is a really nice guy.just that he doesnt talk much.
and his cousins v nice..
came up to me and ask me whether im ok..cos apparently i keep crying
ahahha.

OK.

ALL THE BEST TO MR Y!
we'll miss youu! (even though you wont see this =))
take care in UK and see you back here soooonie!
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im still sad and confused..

that day was at class.
and i got a chance to talk to my lecturer
i tell you.
i seriously have no idea what i wanna work in the future.
like.. SERIOUSLY.

how i wish i can have 2 years to think about it.

sighs.
when everyone is like working towards their goals in life..
i feel im just wasting my life, every second of it.

im confused.
its really not easy to decide what you like and wanna do in the future..

and of course other factors add on to all these.

WHY IS LIFE SO DIFFICULT TO GET THRU?
i guess and hopes and pray that i'll get thru this period of time.

because really.
i dont know what im busy for.. i dont know what im studying for.
i dont know where im going..

i need directions. which seems like hard..
because LIFE dont come with a MANUAL for you to follow.
its hard lah. really.

maybe i need someone to listen to me..
hmmm thinking again..
maybe not.

ok shut up.

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