All about me,love,hates,music and the sky.

All about love,hates,places,music and what keeps me going

helloo people.

glad to hear i'm still alive?
haha.

well.. my lappie's send for repair so im left with my lao ya desktop which i've never touched for months.
oh well.
its not laoya lar, since it still kinda works.
so yay.
i'm blogging again.


anyways.
this week's suppose to be BREAK for me(yes, people. BREAK again!!)
but seems like i'm still very busy with life.

monday supposedly to rest and i got called out to view a night recording session with my church deacon. a rather interesting and fun one though.

and then when i return from it..
i was told my ah ma was hospitalised.
because she had an infection on her leg, which was told to me by my uncle and aunties that it had prolonged for like 1-2weeks.

so tuesday...
send my lappie for reapir and i kinda got lost walking in SGH.
its damn big can.
and the sun is super hot that day..
when i reach the hospital i was almost drenched.
but thank God they have fan there!

so went to visit my ah ma and was happy seeing her being healthy as usual except with a tube poked to her veins on her hand.
ahh. the normal hospital procedures lah..
because the drip and medicine will travel faster thru blood then oral medication, thats why all patients in hospital needs such 'tubes'.
me myself experienced it 3 times before, and its not exactly interesting but its fun =XX
but when the veins start to choke, the medicine going thru your veins make your veins very painful.


anyways.
i've thought about her hospitalisation and thought it wasnt really a bad thing too (as in, you know how older people will say going hospital is a BU JI LI thing? yar..and so on)
but i think its a good way to let her rest and get her body checked since she haven check her body in so many years.
and if she wasnt hospitalised, we wouldnt know she have so many minor illness!!
lol lucky she found out early. so she can take precautions.

and thru tis period.. i guess she really saw who's truely concerned about her!
like really!!

and i heard this latest news from mama saying that ah ma wants to go to church with us!!

OMG i was damn happy ok.
even though i dint show it, but i really am.

after so many years of prayers, persuasion, talks.
seriously.
im happy.

guess God wanna take this opportunity in this period to open the doors of salvation to her..

so YOU SEE!
hospitalisation, getting ill, getting old isnt a bad thing afterall!

prayers work!
Angels Work!
and certainly,
God is always working!

so keep praying for everything and anything that is happening or you wish it'll happen in you life to the everlasting FATHER IN HEAVEN~~! =))

anyways. my ah ma is ok, so thanks to God and everybody else =))

after that went to Gamelan practice, and had some fun talk with soap and isaac..
really wanna thank soap for landing me this job.
THANKS SOAP!
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Wednesday had to help out in my ahma's canteen(she's a canteen vendor in my primary school) because they have shortage of manpower.

really dangerous and tiring job because you dont get to rest and then all the oil and steam is everywhere.
so if you're not careful you'll just get scalded.
i just got scalded by the big pot of rice cooker =XX

anyways it wwas fun too lah.
just very tiring and noisy since the recess kidss are damn noisy..

OH!
not forgetting the irritating DISCIPLINE MASTER!!
grrr.
i wanna kill him can!!
he keeps coming to our store and spot check see whether i got do work that i'm not suppose to..
irritating!
okay because my aunt told me i'm not suppose to be in the kitchen unless i got letter to prove that i did all my health tests, and got all the injections to allow me to work in the canteen.
apparently this is a new rule set out(i think), so that in any case there are cases of food poisoning, they'll know where to find out the problem.

but he is really freaking irritating!!
its not even in his scope of work loh.
i think tml if i go back and help..
and he tries to irritate me, i'll shout!!
lol. pls la. people's ah ma sick i cannot help isit.
grr.


anyways.
today i had fun with my two weilings.!
ahaha. wow new nicks.
well its kinda like a belated celebration for shirley since her bdae fell on tuesday but we dint get to meet her cos its SCHOOL BREAK for us.
so we met her today..
and had fun!
will post the photos when i get them!!

funny!!!

=)
okays see you people..
God blesS~

why suddenly i'm feeling pressure all over again!!

argh. i thought i've just refreshed myself and now im feeling stressed.

zz. sometimes i hate myself.
lol

looking at the world now..
with the Poisonous Milkpowder news.. the Lehman Brother's bankcruptcy news..
i'm kinda worried about myself.
and my family..
and of course our next generation..

say i 38 or something.
but its really time for me to think about such stuff and stop thinking that my parents are gonna provide for me like forever.

and one thing's for sure..
Jesus's 2nd coming is really really soon.
we need more people to believe.
and stop wasting time trying to save the world.


anyways.
thank you everyone for congratulating me though.
even though i'm still in my 'dreamy' mode.
cos im still thinks this is all a DREAM.

its gonna be hard for me, esp im gonna graduate soon also.
but God always uses the time when you're feeling most busy, feeling most stressed out, to use YOU. right?!
ok thats what i think at least.

but whatever it is..
i'll hope to take SF into greater heights!
in God's power =)


ARGH at least i tried to believe.
=XXx
but i'm still feeling the pressure..

but like what the elders in church say to me..
God will want you to take up this position, and you're willing to obey,
He'll give you Greater power to do Greater things..

afterall its for His Kingdom =)


okay.
bless you alll!!

nights!

不安静的夜 - 许仁杰

薰衣草精油香味漫游在思绪的周围

我还在回忆里徘徊搜寻你的妩媚



笔跟纸甜蜜亲嘴它们忘情的搞暧昧

你的名字写一万遍祝福要怎么写


你带走整个世界只留下这黑夜

冷了要拥抱谁眼前只剩一条棉被



爱情岌岌可危所有付出灰飞烟灭

谁都别来安慰我不想承认我有流泪



爱到鞠躬尽瘁这条路走得很疲惫

想要赶过伤悲自己却在终点前崩溃



记事本往事一堆掺杂我多少的憔悴

最后空白无言以对形容孤独滋味



你带走整个世界只留下这黑夜

冷了要拥抱谁眼前只剩一条棉被



爱情岌岌可危所有付出灰飞烟灭


谁都别来安慰我不想承认我有流泪



爱到鞠躬尽瘁这条路走得很疲惫

想要赶过伤悲自己却在终点前崩溃



爱情岌岌可危所有付出灰飞烟灭

谁都别来安慰我不想承认我有流泪



爱到鞠躬尽瘁这条路走得很疲惫
想要赶过伤悲自己却在终点前崩溃

不安静的夜 - 许仁杰

薰衣草精油香味漫游在思绪的周围

我还在回忆里徘徊搜寻你的妩媚



笔跟纸甜蜜亲嘴它们忘情的搞暧昧

你的名字写一万遍祝福要怎么写


你带走整个世界只留下这黑夜

冷了要拥抱谁眼前只剩一条棉被



爱情岌岌可危所有付出灰飞烟灭

谁都别来安慰我不想承认我有流泪



爱到鞠躬尽瘁这条路走得很疲惫

想要赶过伤悲自己却在终点前崩溃



记事本往事一堆掺杂我多少的憔悴

最后空白无言以对形容孤独滋味



你带走整个世界只留下这黑夜

冷了要拥抱谁眼前只剩一条棉被



爱情岌岌可危所有付出灰飞烟灭


谁都别来安慰我不想承认我有流泪



爱到鞠躬尽瘁这条路走得很疲惫

想要赶过伤悲自己却在终点前崩溃



爱情岌岌可危所有付出灰飞烟灭

谁都别来安慰我不想承认我有流泪



爱到鞠躬尽瘁这条路走得很疲惫
想要赶过伤悲自己却在终点前崩溃

been reading this chinese novel..
"zhi1 shi4 peng1 you1?!"

hmmm
very nice book that talks about friends, the friends that you have.. and the person that you might not notice that exists.

kinda relates to me..
bbecause it kinda reflects the life and my friends.

anyways i think its all over already so no point thinking about it.
what comes will come.

and now i'm busy with my own stuff. so thats a good thing.



was watching "I GUESS" just now..
and i still think that XiaoJingTeng's voice and singing is damn power..
although my crazy XJT days are over.
lol.

and he's still cute.
ok.
random post
nights!

ANYBODY WANTS TO GO JB?!!

hahaha.
just random la.
i need a break..
and since i have no school on next tuesday-thursday..
was thinking of going JB.
wanna come wanna come?!
lol.



anyways.
heard from pi mao that tml Lasalle's gonna have a MEGA MEETING.
all classes were forgo-ed to go for this meeting.
like damn serious leh.
i heard jazz and pop are gonna merge.
HUH.
world no more liao, now jazz gonna merge with pop.
THEN STILL GOT WHO WANNA GO LASALLE!!
ke lian de JAZZ students!
seriously loh.
if you tell me tml my course is gonna close down, i'll jump down "BUILDING-OF-THE-YEAR" A.K.A LASALLE COLLEGE OF THE ARTS building for you to see.

but thank God its not happening.
but i dono what will happen to pop and jazz people.. seriously.

still pity them loh =XX

ok enough.
see you =)

Been to the two-years ONCE Singapore Biennale 2008 today.
feels more like an excursion than a visit to the museum.
anyways.
i had heaps of fun there lah.
its really quite interesting to see how simple yet complex ART is..
and v exciting to see some of the great works there.
i love some of them though..
cos i tihnk they're really quite cool!!

enough of artsy talk..
some photos for you guys.. =)
credits to my friend from visual arts!

ENJOY!!





This is the project that me and my friends are suppose to write review for..
nothing in mind on what to write..
might as well take random photos.
ahahha.

the fire very cool right!


NEXT...
one of my favourite art piece in the whole exhibitions..



hmmmmmm
looks like sting ray..
but NOPE.
its a book!!




FLOATING IN AN AQUARIUM!!
damn cool right.
and it doesnt sinks,nor float to the surface.
i think tis is really amazing.

anyways. u must be thinking how come the pages dont corrode.
hmmm its made of LEATHER for your info =)




This is a damn cute.. hmm, 'SCULPTURE' done by future artist!!
can you believe this is an combination of many little 'things' done by KIDS?!
by kids leh!!
so cute right!?



trying to di siao the drawing on the wall..
but i guess lefort's signature act-cute post won my weird-faced.. um, FACE.




THE SUPER BIG MAP OF SINGAPORE WHICH I LOVED!!
the direction which i'm pointing shows the location of my house!!!
yay, i found my house on a big singapore map!!

=))


yupps.
thats all for now.!
will post more photos if i get them from everybody!

i'm sacked.

ok i'm not really sacked.
but i've been given a break from my tution days.
because the little girl's mummy decided that she'll go to a tution centre instead of having tution teacher going her house to teach her.
well maybe her mum found out that she's too naughty to listen in my class.
oh wells, i'm happy and sad lah.

which means part of my source of income is being cut off for now.
argh.
i need to find alternative!!


anyways.
i believed that..

when God closed the door, He'll surely open another window for me =))

TRUST AND BELIEVE!!

NOTICE THE SIMILARITIES BETWEEN THESE PHOTOS?!
IF U HAVEN... PLEASE SCROLL UP AND OBSERVE AGAIN.



YUPPSS..
all the guys in there has Dyed BROWN HAIR.
i just realise i have a fetish for brown haired guys.
cos i think they look damn good in them!
lol.

anyways.
about the last photo.
yupps you're not mistaken.
its a photo of the new F4 movie.

and i went to watched it.
dont say i crazy..
i love watching such dramas remember?
lol
and its the first time i think RUI is more shuai then DAO MING SI.


i've always think that Dao Ming Si is the best looking one between the four of them.
but after watching the Jap version..
i reckon that RUI is far better looking on the whole.
and of course his BROWN hair caught my attention.

haha.
ok this is a random post.



but anyways.
i'm happier now.
so dont worry people =)
although i cannot forsee my future..
but i'll leave it to God to decide for me.. for where i'll be heading.

ASK and you Shall be GIVEN, ya?

=)

in case you guys dont know who is he..
he's DR Stephen Tong.

one of the most knowledgeable pastor i've ever met and i truely respect him alot.
and of course.. one of the GREATEST evangelist i've met.

i'm not kidding.
go to one of his sermons and you'll know his sermons is that powerful.
haha of course the power dont come from him, it comes from the ONE above, our Lord Jesus =))
because God gave him the wisdom. and God's holy spirit is with him and his audience for each and every of his preaching =)

yupps.
its once again the 2008 Stephen Tong's Gospel Rally held at the Indoor Stadium.
although this post came abit late..
but then..
TOMORROW'S the last night of his gospel rally..
so go if you can alright?!

i guarentee you'll benefit alot more then you think =))

i missed the first night.
but i did went for the second night one.
and i realised i've missed out abit from the previous day's one =X

although the things he talked about will be abit chim,
but really.
you'll be addicted to his sermons... the way he talks about Christ.
its really an hour filled of seriousness,humors and songs.
haha. and you'll really be taken-aback by how he relate stuffs on earth to the Bible.

its really interesting to hear Rev Stephen Tong speak.
and i'm addicted to his sermons therefore i'm going tomorrow night too!
i've been to the sermons for 2 out of 4 days already and i'm going tomorrow!!
so make that 3 =)

but really.
i think i know more about Lord Jesus that i've ever did.

somebody who transcends over time..
somebody who created the world and then died for US on the cross.
somebody who's lived 33 and half years on earth and then DIED for YOU AND ME!

JESUS.

?
so WHO IS JESUS?
come to indoor stadium to find out =))

its 2 am its 2am its 2am!!!!

oh my godddddddddd.

i cannot sleep.
u know i slept at 3am yesterday!!? when i turned in at 1am.
YA "turned' in.. really turning in my bed man..

well i guess yesterday was different cos alot of people couldnt get to sleep either.
or so i heard.

but i've been havinng serious isomnia recently.
ok maybe not recently..
like few weeks ago..

arhg.
its 0204am...

gosh.
i really need sleepp.
should seriously stop thinking about so many things argh.
but i cant help it.
cannot control my brain.
zzz
i'm not looking forward to weekends either.
and i dread going to school.

ah i should just die lah.

weekdays.. no
weekends.. NO.


aHHH.
heaven.. YES!

HAHAH.
anyways..
goodlucks to your exams JTHL and ANNNNAA!! =DDD

ok random.

im smiling =)

im happy sad tired confused lost.
whatever..


DEPARTURE OF MR Y.

im sad because i just went to T3 and sended MR Y off..
which happens to be qi's brahtha.

yeps..
which happen to be rather funny sad and interesting.

ofcourse..
i dont like the feeling of sending someone off for over 1 year..
but i dint wanna miss out the chance of seeing him.. and then regret after that.
so yar i went to send him off..
its like..
2 months after miss fu fly, he fly then a month later.. qi's another cousin a.k.a ALL of their cousins, will fly again.
so sad right!

anyways.. back to MR Y.
actually im not that close to MR Y.
but then i actually cried.
its very weird because i think im a very emotional person.
i cannot see other people cry..because i will cry myself..
and then its very hard to stop.

its like how i will watch all the touching drama shows in the middle of the night and cry to myself.


shhh. this is my little secret =D
haha anyways.

yar.. hours before MR Y's flight..
we're all at the airport.
by then.. qi and mum are already all red-eyed.
poorthing.
think they've cried for awhile already..

im not that close to him..
but i just went.. because we've known each other since young.
played together, went to sunday school together.
although i dont really talk to him, but will still smile at him when i see him in church.

the few things that I DONT THINK you're suppose to say during one's departure...

1)Talk about CHILDHOOD
2) Talk about the Quarrels you guys had before
3) tell him that you'll miss him/her


haha because its really sad to hear those stuff.
really.
when qi's dad was saying how Mr Y use to bully qi when she was young..
both me and qi coulndt stop our tears.
its like.. really la.
all the memories will start coming up until you cannot stop it.



anyways..
the departure is sad.
except i guess all the crying humans are all GIRLS/WOMEN.
and no guys cried.
even his bestest bestest friend.. and himself.
even though i know its hard to part with families and friends..
really..
maybe its EGO. maybe they're just emotionless creature. haha ok im kidding.


IM HAPPY because i got a huge hug from him!!
YAY.
i dont know why im happy.. but i just am =)

its like.. we dont talk, we know each other exist.
thats it.
and he gave me a hug before he go..
=X
ok im contented already.


and its very touching to see him hug his family.
really la.

ok maybe people who know his family well enough will know why its touching.
but its really touching!!

and its INTERESTING because my secondary school friend, who migrated to new zealand,then came back to singapore for NS..
IS MR Y'S ARMY FRIEND.
omg.
i was like damn surprised lah.
and really. THIS WORLD IS DAMN SMALL.

if not. then we're really fated la.
hahah that time i saw him at some wedding also.
like. very coincidental loh..

but anyways thats besides the point.
MR Y's departure for studies is really a sudden one.
i think i only knew it like..
weeks ago?
when they announced it on stage.
v shocked, v suprised.
actually qi did mentioned to me, but dint know it was confirmed.
so.. yar very sudden one. somemore he just ORD-ed like last friday?
lol
yea.

but i know MR Y is a really nice guy.just that he doesnt talk much.
and his cousins v nice..
came up to me and ask me whether im ok..cos apparently i keep crying
ahahha.

OK.

ALL THE BEST TO MR Y!
we'll miss youu! (even though you wont see this =))
take care in UK and see you back here soooonie!
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im still sad and confused..

that day was at class.
and i got a chance to talk to my lecturer
i tell you.
i seriously have no idea what i wanna work in the future.
like.. SERIOUSLY.

how i wish i can have 2 years to think about it.

sighs.
when everyone is like working towards their goals in life..
i feel im just wasting my life, every second of it.

im confused.
its really not easy to decide what you like and wanna do in the future..

and of course other factors add on to all these.

WHY IS LIFE SO DIFFICULT TO GET THRU?
i guess and hopes and pray that i'll get thru this period of time.

because really.
i dont know what im busy for.. i dont know what im studying for.
i dont know where im going..

i need directions. which seems like hard..
because LIFE dont come with a MANUAL for you to follow.
its hard lah. really.

maybe i need someone to listen to me..
hmmm thinking again..
maybe not.

ok shut up.

i haven seen my brother for a weeek
its scary loh.
its not that im home late, its that he's home late, and out early.

ahhhhhhhhh
PERFECT CUT very nice la.
the people inside is like insane.

anyways.
i just realise why people.. or rather human beings are IMPERFECT.
because..
we use LOVE to cover up our imperfections..

if everyone is PERFECT..
then there wont be love on earth
and thats sooo sad.
dont you think so?





THIS IS DAMN GOOOD~

its one of the QUIETEST movie i ever watched..
AND

Robots have never been so cute..
most robots show i watched last time is either..
1)UGLY
2)SCARY
3)NOISY

hey it rhymes!


anyways.
Wall.E is nice!!
his girlfriend is so cute alsoo.


the story is like..
very touching. with some funny parts..
and really la. it will increase our awareness of helping to save the Earth.
although its in animation.. its sooo near to ourselves.

i cannot imagine myself being FAT,STUPID AND LAZY.
although i am one lazy human noww..
but the character(or rather HUMANS) in the movie is damn lazy!!
everything is automated one!
can you imagine?!

although i ever thought i would LOVE such environment where we wouldnt need to lift a finger to do our stuff,get our things..
but i think i will miss the feeling of feeling, the feeling of able to move around by myself.. its just like being handicapped literally and purposely but you still have robots sevants to serve you all day round.


eeeks.
now i hate such life..
cannot move?
cannot play sports?
cannot play instruments?
EEEEE
might as well die la.
lol

but this show is very nice!
even though u dont like cartooniee shows, or animation..
but thenn.
this will really change your mind..


I HOPE~

lol
EH PIXAR LEH!
dont play play hor..
their show got standard one loh..
lol

okay see everybody! =)

MY HOROSCOPES SAY...:


Saggi:

The Bottom Line
There is a strong need for you to clean your emotional house. Leave the past behind.

In Detail
There is a very strong need for you to clean your emotional house today. You need to toss out things that are keeping you from moving forward. If you are still nursing a heartache, that's one thing -- but if you are still wallowing in your self pity or pain, then that's quite another. Let go of the past and focus on your dreams for the future. You've been carrying this pain for too long. The fact is, you can decide to be happy or decide to be sad. Which will it be?


SCORPIO:

The Bottom Line
Your intense energy appeals to people, but it is only present when you are genuine.

In Detail
Why model yourself after someone you admire when you can be the original person who everyone else admires? Imitation may be the sincerest form of flattery, but it can also send the wrong message about who you really are to people you want to impress. It's important to stay true to yourself, now more than ever. You have an intense energy that appeals to people, but it is only present when you yourself are completely present. Today, you've got to be for real.



dont ask me why i read 2 horoscopes.
i just do. because im stuck between both, even though i feel im more towards Scorpio side.

but anyways.
these two horoscope say until machiam i very sad.
lol.

might be for real might not be.
its up to u to thinkk~




アイのうた 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
歌：福井舞
作詞：山本加津彦
作曲：山本加津彦


優しい風が吹く　いつもの道で

あなたに会えるとか　そんなことでいい

小さな鼓動の揺れが　想いに重なり

静かに溶けるのを　ただ待っている



人はどうして　答えを求めるの？

わたしはこれで　幸せなのに　幸せなのに



アイのうたが　聴こえたんだ

それは　小さなアイが

微笑むように　寄り添うような

優しい音がした

時は流れ　夢は流れ

いろんなかたち　変わっても

あなたがただ　ここにいれば　それだけでいい



あなたの呼ぶ声に　気づくときには

失した物に　ただ手を伸ばすだけ


時はどうして　終わりを告げるの？

描いた今は　明日の空に続いているのに



アイのうたが　聴こえたんだ

それは　小さなアイが

一つ一つ　瞬くような

愛しい音がした

時と共に　あの日の星

涙で流れてしまっても

あなたがただ　ここにいれば　それだけでいい



願いは　時に遠く

無理に掴もうとしても

手元をすり抜けてゆくけど

そのまま　消えてゆくような

大きなものより

小さなアイに　気づけば



いつか時が　花を咲かし

やがて大きなアイが

歌うように　奏でるように

二人を包むだろう



アイのうたが　聴こえたんだ

それは　小さなアイが

微笑むように　寄り添うような

優しい音がした

時は流れ　夢は流れ

いろんなかたち　変わっても

あなたがただ　ここにいれば　それだけでいい

あなたがいて　そばで笑う　それだけでいい



OK dont think anyone understands this..

Ai no Uta
Vocals: Fukui Mai

Yasashii kaze ga fuku itsumo no michi de

Anata ni ae rutoka sonna koto de ii

Chiisa na kodou no yure ga omoi ni kasanari

Shizuka ni toke runo o tada matte iru



Hito wa doushite kotae o motome runo?

Watashi wa korede shiawase nano ni shiawase nano ni



Ai no uta ga ki koe tanda

Sore wa chiisa na ai ga

Hohoemu youni yori sou youna

Yasashii oto gashita

Toki wa nagare yume wa nagare

Ironnakatachi kawa ttemo

Anata ga tada koko ni ireba sore dake de ii



Anata no yobu koe ni kidzuku toki ni wa

Ushi ta mono ni tada te o noba sudake

Toki wa doushite owari o tsuge runo?

Egai ta ima wa ashita no sora ni tsudui te iru no ni



Ai no uta ga ki koe tanda

Sore wa chiisa na ai ga

Hitotsu hitotsu matataku youna

Itoshii oto gashita

Toki to tomoni ano nichi no hoshi

Namida de nagare teshimattemo

Anata ga tada koko ni ireba sore dakede ii



Negai wa tokini tooku

Muri ni tsukamo utoshitemo

Te moto o suri nuke te yuku kedo

Sono mama kie te yuku youna

Ooki namonoyori

Chiisa na ai ni kidzu keba



Itsuka toki ga hana o saka shi

Yagate ooki na ai ga

Utau youni kanade ru youni

Futari o tsutsumu darou



Ai no uta ga ki koe tanda

Sore wa chiisa na ai ga

Hohoemu youni yori sou youna

Yasashii oto gashita

Toki wa nagare yume wa nagare

Ironnakatachi kawa ttemo

Anata ga tada koko ni ireba sore dakede ii

Anata ga ite soba de warau sore dakede ii



its my favourite must-listen song on my mp3 now..



=))



GET IT?

with greater POWER comes greater RESPONSIBILITIES..

im very stress lah.
better not think about it.

anyways..
im happy im not there.
im glad that im here.
im.. confused.
i dont know laaaa..

somethings are beyond our control isnt it.
and i think.. once u change my perception of you..
then too bad.
its very hard to me to think that you're a good person.
too bad. because u let me see that you're such 'another' person.
and i seriously dint think you'll ask such a question.
just too bad loh.


and im not being sad here..
just random thoughts about the things that are happening nowadays.. around me.
just.. usual me.


anyways..
random photos over the weeks..
credits to: Urlele.

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